What no why would he ? I’m around plenty other boys than Tig all day, why Tig in particular ? He’s my associate and we work together everyday, but it doesn’t mean I should date him or something ?
It’s funny how as soon as two persons found a company and they’re opposite genders, people automatically assume they’re married or dating
Oh wow that sure is a tricky one
If you mean jealous in love, I have absolutely no reason to be, my boyfriend is the most sincere and loyal person I ever met, and I know he loves me more than anybody else, so it’s definitly not a concern. Sure I’m pretty exclusive and I don’t want him to date other girls, but I know he wouldn’t even think of it, so I never sneaked into his phone or something, I know I don’t have to worry.
I might get jealous on other topics, especially on art, but I think it’s more of a motivating feeling rather than spiteful. I’ll also be jealous that company X sold tons of games when I think it’s not worth it, but it strives me to do better games. I don’t get jealous over material possessions, because I have everything I need and I don’t even want anything in particular for Christmas.
So, I don’t think I get jealous easily, because really who should I be jealous of ?
Thank you anon, especially appreciated since I increased the take of antibiotics yesterday and I’m herxing like mad right now
I’LL KILL THIS FUCKER
Thank you, I will! I definatly will! Sometimes I’m having it rough and want to give up, but I gotta detach myself from these bad thoughts, because it’s only the disease speaking. I’m tough and I’ll kick that sucker’s ass.
This is a little bit sad. :c
I made this in-game decoration element! One of only a dozen because I was more focused on characters, but if you pay attention you can see I just used the elements I designed for Harebourg’s sprite, and resized/recolored them to make them look like stone :3
So, I phoned the lab, and the german test came back. Positive.
It is Lyme.
Borrelia Afzelii to be exact. Infection is ancient, probably several years old.
I can’t fucking wait to receive all the official papers and shove it to the face of the half dozen medical doctors that said it was “all in my head”.
I’m happy somehow ! Hope ! Treatment ! Battling against something I know !
Hahahaha that’s an excellent question
Sometimes he really gets on my nerves, especially when he damages furniture or wastes supplies like paper and pencils, and I just yell a good time to let it out, but most of the time it’s just harmless funny stuff, and it makes me laugh.
Tig always gives this image of a childish, mindless goof, but when you truly get to know him, you realize it’s just a facade. He’s extremely intelligent, more than any other person I ever met, even if he says otherwise and jokes about himself being a terrible dev all the time. But don’t let it pull the wool over your eyes, because it couldn’t be less true.
I just realize everyday how lucky I am to be an associate of someone that talented, and then I don’t care much about how he likes to cover my computer with post-it notes.
Well I’m mixed up. Some days are better than others, but overall it’s a constant joint pain and brain fog I’m struggling with. Doctor was almost happy I felt worse, because he said it meant the treatment was working, and I think I experienced a few Herxheimer reactions (days where I could barely get off bed, extremly sore like with a bad flu), but I’m still wary about calling it Lyme once and for all.
First ELISA test came back negative (like they always do, or so I’m told), and Western Blot didn’t show much, so I took a second test in Germany yesterday to really get the last word on this. But because I’ve started treatment 3 weeks ago, either the antibiotics took care of most of the infection and the new blood test will show even less antibodies, or the treatment helped my body explode the bacteria into bits so it recognizes them better and it’ll show better on the test. I’m a bit clueless really.
What I do know for certain is that some symptoms are really not made up by my brain : the joint pain is almost unbearable sometimes, and a blood test I took in early July showed a CRP (protein showing there’s an inflammation somewhere, normal values 0-6µg/L) above 25, meaning my body is indeed inflammed everywhere.
I also get freaky heart palpitations because of the treatment, and it’s definatly not something nice.
The brain fog is trickier to diagnose, but I know deep inside me how I used to think, how my brain used to work, and it’s definatly not the same. I can barely think or read long phrases, when I used to devour a dozen books a year. I put orange juice in my bowl instead of milk, I pick the flour and walk with it until I realize I wanted to make myself a sandwich, I forget to turn off the fire under the pot when I’m done, I’m stuttering and can’t find my words, I forget to lock the door when I’m usually an obsessive frick with that, I’m asking Tig about the size of the icon I have to do when I’ve already made 15 of those… I know it might sound trivial, but I really feel I’m loosing something here. Like, am I becoming dumb ? Will it come back one day ? Are some neurons destroyed ? My mind used to race so fast all the time !
Ugh, sorry it got this long. I really hope something is gonna show on this german test, otherwise I’m pretty back to square 0 and I have no idea what I could do.